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Cheryl Mendoza

How He speaks to me…..Or… can't He just call my cell when He wants to talk?

WE the People…..

So I went on out to the No Kings Rally on Saturday, and while I didn’t have too many conversations with people, I did find it interesting to see the many signs and what they had written on them.  There were a few inappropriate signs, but the majority had a question, point of view or political position.  It is interesting to see someone carry a sign, because typically they are writing about something that has deep meaning for them. It’s a bit of wearing their “heart on their sleeve.”  And that is just not how we live our lives.  So many of us have only a vague notion of the heart of the person sitting next to us.  They may be our co-worker, neighbor, grocery clerk or any other of the multitudes we do life with every day.  We say hello or help out so many people that we don’t even know every day.  And not once do we ever ask their stand on a position before we say “hello”.  

Why do we build barriers between ourselves?  Don’t get me wrong…. I know there are issues where we disagree that are important.   The funny thing is, if you ask most people it’s not really what they want that is the problem, but how we get there.  We want freedom, good schools, safe neighborhoods and jobs that will pay the bills and give a sense of worth.  I think most of us would want to a good life for ourselves  AND our neighbors…. We just can’t seem to decide which “ism” gets us there.  And I guess I am getting to the place where I think all “isms” don’t work.  Whether it is socialism and yes….even capitalism are systems that can easily become monsters in the hands of the wrong people.  And that is where the problem lies with us.  Our problem is….. We the People.  

The amazing thing is though, that the answer to the problem is just the same…We the People.  

Jesus replied, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’   Matthew 22: 37-39

So instead of getting upset and not talking to those around you, try doing some listening.  Find the common ground we all share and start breaking down the barriers we’ve built.   We are neighbors…. We are not enemies.  

And until we each look at ourself and see where we have been wrong and embrace humility, we will continue to be used by the great evil that is in this world.  

Come on y’all…..“Don’t get fooled again!”

Respond in Love….again!

So I shared a post from Kristen du Mez  with some comments regarding her take about complementarianism online and received a nice comment from a friend of mine.  My first response to the comment though was less than warm and fuzzy.  I was a bit angry to be honest.  It wasn’t so much the fact that she said she believed she was complementarian, but that the reasons she gave sounded like the standard teaching.  Worst of all, she even quoted a verse!  

These days, there is nothing more irritating to me than someone who quotes one verse to justify why they live a certain way.  I am sorry to say that was my first reaction, but I am grateful to God that He reminded me of something very important.  I love this woman!  

She has a heart for women and she does seek God in how she lives.  She leads women in prayer and study.  She gives her time as a volunteer to children in church, is a retired nurse and is a devoted wife, mother and very proud grandmother.  If I am going to find some wisdom, she is the type of person I would seek out.  Now do I think that means that I have to agree with her?  

Well, not really.  

It means I get to gather up what I hear from her, other teachers, the whole of scripture and most importantly the words of Jesus.  Then I take the information gleaned add some wrestling with the Holy Spirit and listen for the still small voice of wisdom.  Then I take that wisdom and make it a part of my life.  But what if the wrestling doesn’t give me a conclusion?  Well then we go back to the basics.  Love God and Love people.  And in the meantime…. Continue wrestling.   

And to my friend…. Thank you!  I love you and appreciate your heart!  And I appreciate  that God used your comment to help me lean into Him for a response.  And I hope that response reflected what I believe He told me…… to respond in LOVE!  

Advent: Hoping for Good!

I am reading through the Bible again…. Wait, that’s really not totally true. I am not really trying to “read through it”, I just keep reading it from Genesis to Revelation at my own pace.  It’s just my new favorite way to spend my time with God.   

I had just finished the old testament and opened up Matthew and I realized I was back at the  Christmas story.  Great timing!  Funny thing is, I typically move to the gospels this time of year. I like to be on the same page with the rest of the world.  That kind of unity of focus is something we don’t see a lot of, so I don’t want to waste the opportunity.  

During December I tend to go back and forth from Matthew to Luke and then to some of the prophets and their prophecies of the coming Messiah.  So today as I dwell on HOPE, I had to run outside and take a picture.  I could see the color of the sky through my curtains and knew it would be beautiful. Now don’t get me wrong, I had to put on a bunch of clothes first because  it is slightly chilly outside.  The effort was totally worth it! As I looked at the sunrise, I thought of the words of Zechariah…..

“Because of the God’s tender mercy, the morning light from heaven is about to break upon us, to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death and guide us to the path of peace”.  Luke: 1:78-79

Sunrise always fills me with HOPE..  A new day, a new opportunity  for good to happen.  I know there is also the chance of hardship, pain and the not so good happening.  But in the first rays of the dawn, my heart automatically HOPEs for good.  Truthfully, while the good might not be mine to claim, odds are something good will be happening to someone I love.  And that definitely is a good thing!  I also realize that the good I’ve received, may be what I’m called to give to someone else… And that might even be better!

Fear Not: Love and Community

It’s happening more and more.  I wake up with random thoughts floating through my brain.  I wonder if it’s because this is the only time of day where I am not being bombarded by “news” from every part of this world.  Maybe God is filtering through the information that’s been thrown at me during a day and pulling out what is worth taking another look at.  I am not sure, but I am beginning to feel that those first few moments of the morning have some of my clearest thoughts of the day.  

So what were my thoughts this morning?  Well I would think it’s partly due to a movie we watched yesterday.  Mike had sat down for a moment and popped on the tv and there was a movie already playing. It was called Whitebird.  We didn’t see the beginning, but it was easy to pick up the story line. It’s set in France during World War II, and tells the story of a boy and his family who hide a Jewish classmate.  It was a lovely movie, with moments showing the harsh ugliness that can be found in the world, but also the beauty of kindness and sacrifice.  What struck me most about the move though were the actions of the towns people….both good and bad.  They were the actions of everyday neighbors.  

 – The Priest who tried to get his Jewish students to safety.

– The young man who gave up his fellow students to the nazi’s.  

 – The teacher who, though not Jewish, chooses to go with her students to an unknown future. 

 – The young man, who even though was disabled and mistreated himself, chooses to lead a young girl to safety.  Even risking the potential cost to himself and his family.  

 – The mother and father who share not only their home and safety, but love with a young woman who is not their own. 

 – The young men who choose to become a part of the mechanism of evil.  The one who embraces the power and reaps its rewards. And another who chooses good, when his spirit can’t take another minute of the evil he has aligned with.

 These characters all come together to knit this story of evil, love, suspense and ultimately of beauty.  How beauty?  Well, it’s the beauty of the gospel shown in the midst of the ugliness of our world.  It’s what Jesus spoke of…. 

“This is my commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you.  Greater love has no one than this, that a person will lay down his life for his friends.”  John 15:12-13

“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and with all your strength and with all your mind and your neighbor as yourself. “ Luke 10:27

Which of these three do you think proved to be a neighbor to the man who fell into the robbers’ hands?” And he said, “The one who showed compassion to him.” Then Jesus said to him, “Go and do the same.” Luke 10:36-37

The words of Jesus, when lived out, bring about beauty.  They are the “kingdom come and will be done” here on earth.  And that very amazing way of life is brought about by neighbors.  Not anyone of renown, or famous, but everyday people.  The characters listed above are all of us.  In each country, town and neighborhood you will find some of each.  And each day we get to choose who we will be.  

There was also one other couple in the movie, and I found their part of the story most interesting.  Our heroic family lived outside of the town. On their property was a barn, where they hid the young woman.  There was also a neighboring home with an older couple who lived there.  The couple were quiet and furtive, so the family felt that they must be collaborators and kept their distance for the safety of their young guest.   As our story comes to a dramatic conclusion, the young woman is left without help. In desperation, she races to the door of this unknown couple. It’s then she finds out that they were living such a quiet life, not because they were working with the Germans, but because they were themselves hiding Jews.  

At that point I wondered….. If they had only known maybe the two families could have been more help to each other?  Or at least, what difference it would have made to not live in fear of each other? 

Fear destroys, but love let loose can conquer all.  I believe our world peddles fear for its own gain.  Unfortunately, I believe the church has even allowed that idol to come into our midst.  I also know, I don’t want to live in fear.  I mean really…. The bible has 366 verses telling us to “fear not”!  So how do we combat the use of  fear that is such a scourge to us all?  

I believe following God is my best defense, but it is also our best offense.  We can’t defeat fear, but God can!  I also believe God’s word points to my neighbors as the best way for me to combat fear’s death grip.  When I think of loving my neighbor, it means knowing them.  Doing life with them!  So that when someone wants to stoke fear by putting you into an “us vs them” mentality. We combat that by putting ourselves and our neighbors in the WE category.  

I am beginning to believe these things more strongly  the older I get…. But now is  the time to do my part to live it!  I have been in my new home for about a year and a half, and have a few people I know.  But there are so many more I don’t.  It is time to put my money where my mouth is, and seek to really live out what God is laying so strongly on my heart.  To know my neighbors.  To stand up with them and be a neighbor like the ones we had when I was young.  Like the hated Samaritan…. The person on the outside, that chose to love even when it wasn’t easy or cheap or asked of him.  He just did it!

May God help me to do no less!

Countdown to 250…..July 9, 1775

So the General is getting down to the nitty gritty. Today, he and his generals have a council of war and their focus is the defense of their positions around Boston.

Disclaimer here…. this is a synopsis from what I am reading. I try to be fairly specific, but I may be mistaken on small details. This is not an exhaustive or in depth exposition of history, just a geek writing her thoughts on what she has read about the day.

That being said…. this council of war covers discussions of British troop strength and their allies, the troop strength of the Colonial army. By their own estimates they are woefully deficient in the amount of men needed to put up a good defense. They make plans to recruit more men, make plans for Washington to ask for temporary reinforcements and plan where they would retreat if defending the positions becomes untenable. That position….. “Welch Mountains near Cambridge & in the Rear of the Roxbury Lines is a suitable Place.” And in Roxbury…..

July 9th, Sunday.—This morning our chaplain came and preached In our regiment, from Chronicles 5:34; in the afternoon from Deuteronomy 23:9.  A flag came from the enemy with a packet by General Lee.  A man in a neighboring regiment was whipped twenty stripes for striking an officer.

In Roxbury, Jacob Haskell noted the events of the day in his diary. It’s amazing that such a momentous even in our history is played out in normal events of the day to day.

Countdown to 250….July 8, 1775

Washington’s general order was pretty small today. Instructions to make sure that the main guard “would on no account whatever, be without a drum.” No, the General wasn’t getting the band back together, the drum was to be used by those on duty as an alarm. If needed the drum would be sounded and the soldiers would report to their positions. He requested updates on ammunition and scheduled a court martial for 10:00 AM on Monday.

The Continental Congress was again working on another petition to the king…. Again they were reaching out to try and work through their differences…..again! And in Roxbury, Caleb Haskell was making notes in a diary.

He didn’t have much to say on July 8, 1775, but I loved to have the opportunity to read his simple statements of life at his post. https://revwar75.com/library/bob/pdfs/Caleb%20Haskell%20Diary.pdf

July 8th, Saturday.—Th’s morning at 3 o’clock our people at Roxbury went down upon the neck; rushed upon the guard; they retreated; our men set fire to the guardhouse; they made a heavy fire upon our party, which was returned; a smart engagement ensued on both sides. Our lines manned for two hours.

It is insane to realize what is at our fingertips. I can find information about the big events, the day to day and even diaries from the every day people of the Revolution. Together the sources weave a more down to earth story of the founding of our country. There are the famous people that we all know, and then there are the Caleb Haskell’s of our history.

When you see these stories, you realize that it’s not just about those famous names, but also about people just like you and me. That is why I love the diary of Caleb Haskell. His words remind me that there is more going on than what’s in the history books. It reminds me that even my story, intersects with the story of my country.

It makes me wonder….. what footnote will I leave?

Countdown to 250 – July 7, 1775

So it was a rough day for the General. On June 15th the Continental Congress had made him the Commander of the Army, and on July 3rd he formally took command. So after a few days of issuing mostly administrative General Orders, today he is tasked with something a little more heavy.

You see, the battle of Bunker Hill had been in June, and during the battle there was a blatant example of cowardice. Three men were brought up on charges, but just one was found guilty. All of this had happened before Washington came on the scene, but the sentencing was left for him to deal with. After reviewing the court martial information, the General agrees with the sentencing and dismisses Captain John Callender from the Continental Army. In the general order from this day, Washington speaks his thoughts on the dangers of cowardice.

It is with inexpressible Concern that the General upon his first Arrival in the army, should find an Officer sentenced by a General Court Martial to be cashier’d for Cowardice—A Crime of all others, the most infamous in a Soldier, the most injurious to an Army, and the last to be forgiven; inasmuch as it may, and often does happen, that the Cowardice of a single Officer may prove the Distruction of the whole Army:

So while Captain Callender was dismissed, John Callender was not done with the army. The general’s order had some interesting wording…..

Capt. John Callender is accordingly cashiered and dismissd from all farther service in the Continental Army as an Officer.

“….as an Officer.” That small phrase made all the difference. You see, while John could not be an officer, he was able to rejoin the Continental Army as an enlisted man. He rejoins a volunteer artillery company, and while this is out of our timeline, he does show heroism during the battle of Long Island. In March of 1776, his unit is under attack and some even start to break under the assault. Callender assumes command and by the “force of his example” rallies the men. While they are still overtaken, his bravery catches the attention of a British officer who spares his life, and takes him as a prisoner of war. The story of his bravery was relayed to Washington, who upon hearing was moved to strike the court martial from the record, reinstate his rank and arrange for his release. I was so surprised by this outcome and I just couldn’t wrap my mind around “why”? Why did he run during the battle of Bunker Hill but acted so bravely at Long Island? I tried looking for something written or spoken by him to see what his motivation was, but I unfortunately didn’t find anything.

What it did remind me of is something I’ve come to believe is very important for my life…. It’s not how you start, but how you finish. He didn’t start off very well, but he certainly turned it around. Captain Callender seemed to make the choice to humble himself by signing up as a lowly private, and didn’t even try to hide his unsavory story. He just mustered his courage and served his country and in these days it gives me hope. Hope that if he can, so can I.

https://founders.archives.gov/documents/Washington/03-01-02-0040

250 years ago today……

The American Revolution was the start of my love of history. I remember the 200th Birthday of our nation, and now as we are on the cusp of the 250th, I wanted to jump back in and follow the story day by day….. So I started posting this on July 4th, but thought I would add it to this platform also. So here we go with July 6th!

So Thomas Jefferson and John Dickinson were at it again today. These two seem to be the official copywriters for the Continental Congress. Dickinson is actually known as the “Penman of the Revolution” for his “Letters from a Farmer in Pennsylvania” that were published in the late 1760’s.

Today’s post was the “Declaration on Taking Arms”….you can read here: https://avalon.law.yale.edu/18th_century/contcong_07-06-75.asp?fbclid=IwY2xjawLYB-lleHRuA2FlbQIxMABicmlkETFIanhEOWlKMllnZkVybDRTAR6MJP0mDxudHHeY7gGrLFjNZkTyHa6DLw8K3nk0F5EYFfnLC9vn5x8a28ktwQ_aem_fwE9tW6RuhGD6ppctf2mSg

I loved the copy I found with both Jefferson’s and Dickinson’s drafts, edits and then the final copy that was distributed. I have worked with people writing different things, and the way people come together and work to make themselves known through writing is an amazing process to me.

“….being with our [one] mind resolved to dye Free-men rather than live Slaves.”

It’s interesting to read the declaration and hear them use such strong language as “slaves.” They both actually did own slaves, and I wondered what kind of mental gymnastics had to be done to own people while actively seeking freedom?

I read a bit more about John Dickinson, since he wasn’t someone I knew right off the top of my head. He will pop up more in this story…. but for now you can actually listen to his letters here: https://librivox.org/letters-from-a-farmer-in…/

How do YOU know?

I asked them, “how do you know?”

He said, “do you see what he’s holding?  He always has the good book open when he speaks.”  

Again I asked, “but how do you know?”  

“Do you see the words on the screen,” she smiled “it makes it so easy to follow along.” 

“Yes, I see,” I answered, “but how do they know?” 

“Well, look at all the people” they said.  

“There is a lot, but how do we know?” 

“We are a bible preaching church,”  they said. 

And I wondered again, “how do they know?” 

And then it hit me, It’s not you, or they, or we, but I.   And while all had explanations, the only one that mattered was my own.  And in that moment I posed the question as it should have been from the beginning, “how do I know?” 

It was then I looked at the book in my hands.  Not as well worn as it should be, but getting there the older I got.  Verses underlined, notes of what spoke to me and dates to mark where I was waiting for God to do His work.  Dates that are growing into a timeline that shows the good He has already done….to see how far He has brought me.  

This is how I know.  Through a book written just for me, for you…. for all of us.  

There is only one way to know.  Open the Bible and make it your own. 

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