Cheryl Mendoza

It’s Lent and I am writing again.  There have always been times I’ve found it hard to write, but after last year, it feels even harder to string sentences together.   So the focus of this time of the year is something that I am relying on to help me push through.  I always work better with a deadline.

I already knew what I wanted to write about, it was just the “doing it” that seemed a problem.  I only have so much time in the day and much of it’s filled with work, family, the thought of exercise, and spending time with Jesus.  So I am in a small group type of Bible study and this past week we were talking about spending time with God.  Many shared how hard it was, but how they each were trying to do it.  I of course already have my time carved out, and have been doing it for years.  Before I could pat myself on the back,(OK…maybe I got a few pats in) I was reminded of a few things.  

First of all, this happened not because of my innate wisdom. (Because I have none)  It took a change in schedule, a mother looking for quiet and a lot of God’s prompting for me to have this time.  Now that I look back, I can see how little changes created such a major blessing in my life.  But I see now, that He’s not finished yet.  It’s like He’s saying, “Hey… you’re still trying to figure out how to write, so you’re all in the same boat.”  Every time I think I’ve got it down, I am reminded that I am still “under construction.”  And let me be honest…. It took 19 YEARS for God to get me here.  Ya…. Not a quick study am I!  

So here I am again, trying to put words to paper and work out my life with a God who sees and knows me best.  So this morning, I praise God for the time I spend each day just with Him.  It is an amazing gift!  I’m also looking forward to the next 40 plus days to see what else He will say.  

Was this what I was going to write about?  I didn’t think so… but this isn’t the first time my words have been changed, and I know it won’t be the last.