So it is only 5:36 this morning, and I am already just amazed where my mind has gone. It started as soon as I woke up. I won’t be saying why I started thinking this morning, due to HIPPA laws, but I am anticipating a more tight month with money, so I was concerned.
As my brain started to kick into gear and see how we can work things to make it all work out. So as I was wondering how this would work out, my mind went from thinking about it, to worrying about it.
It was crazy how fast I went there. I was barely awake and within seconds worry was standing at my doorstep. It was mind boggling! While I lay there trying to work out how we could switch things up to make sure it would all work out, the worry did not go away. It only became worse! And that is when I heard it. NO! It was not a voice, but I knew WHO it was. Again, God reminded me of how He has cared for me and my family. How it has not always been easy, but how in the end He has provided. I was embarrassed, because I know this! But it is amazing how fast worry can grab you! So I got up and started reading again this morning. Today I was at the story of Jesus turning the water into wine at a wedding. I was struck by the craziness of the story. The wine is gone! A serious faux pas! Mary though had a plan. She tells the servants to do whatever Jesus says, and what he asks them to do is weird! Fill up those jars with water, then take a cupful to the “master of ceremonies,” this guy must have been like the DJ(?) When the servant does, the guy is like “yes!! Rombauer!” Sorry for those of you who don’t drink wine, all I can say that is not two buck chuck.
There it is again, Jesus asking us to do something that makes us go…..huh? And we can either go with it in one of two ways. We can either go with worry or with trust. Worry comes with stress and trust comes with….. well trust comes with a lot of things. Sometimes trust looks like peace, joy, feeling tentative or maybe even laughter.
I laugh every time I think of the crazy things I think God is leading me to do, and what people must think. But like the servant knowing that it was water in the cup, I am always excited to see the result of what I offer. He offered water and found it was wine. I offer words and find encouragement.
So as I’m sitting here, I am shaking my head, not sure of where this day will go. But yes….I’m laughing thinking that it’s going to be a crazy month full of writing, work, doctors, family, love and lots of lights…… Well it is Christmastime you know!