Cheryl Mendoza

I AM.  God’s name.  I’ve always thought it was kind of a weird name, I mean really…. I AM.  Well of course you are…right?

It wasn’t until this week, when I was doing a script for our preK class, that I got a better idea of what it meant for me.  So as I was reading about Moses a sentence jumped out at me.  I’d read it before,  but today I really HEARD it.  

It  wasn’t something God said, but it was what Moses responded that  caught my attention.  God had just told Moses that he was going to bring the children of Israel out of Egypt.  Great news right?  Moses then starts arguing with God, telling him all the reasons why he was the wrong man for the job.   Moses asks, “who am I?”  And in that question, I found a different way to look at God’s name.
God is the I AM.  You can put anything you need after that statement, and it works.  I AM holy.  I AM truth.  I AM wise.  I AM peace.  I AM joy.  I AM provision.  Whatever we need, the great I AM is always the answer.  The I AM statement about God is always true, but like Moses, for me it doesn’t work so well.  As a matter of fact,  even at my best, there is always an asterisk.

I am encouraging.*  Except when I am tired, have given it all out already and haven’t sought out my own encouragement from God.

I am patient.*  Except when I’ve done all the calculations in my brain already, made a decision and have to wait for others to make theirs.

I am generous.*  Only after God has to remind me that He’s got my back, and the resources at my disposal are truly to share.

I am a good listener.*  Except when I have to listen too long.  Ugh!

These are things that I strive to be and some are even my gifts.  So it should be easier for me….right?  Well that is a definite NO!  God is all those things and more! He is anything we need, perfectly every single time!  He fulfills the purpose of His name….I AM.